When we are unhurried and wise, we perceive that only great and worthy things have any permanent and absolute existence, that petty fears and petty pleasures are but the shadow of the reality.
The problem with us is that we seek to mend
our broken priorities outside ourselves and in this quest different people fill those gaps differently
leaving us either stuck at a place or lost in a mess!
You may seek his forgiveness and he may even forgive you for the trouble you have caused but how do you think he will forgive you for the harm you have caused to yourself. The embodiment of the almighty himself.