I could not, at any age, be content to take my place by the fireside and simply look on. Life was meant to be lived. Curiosity must be kept alive. One must never, for whatever reason, turn his back on life.
You may seek his forgiveness and he may even forgive you for the trouble you have caused but how do you think he will forgive you for the harm you have caused to yourself. The embodiment of the almighty himself.